"Que Sera Sera"

I am a horrible blogger. This I confess. I have started a dozen new entries, but they all seemed...too trite to publish. 

2010 has already really pushed me to my limits. Frequently I've found myself on my face in prayer and seeking Him for answers, comfort and peace. I've also been "encouraged" (a nice way of putting having no other choice but) to re-find my own personal joy and peace. The amount of obstacles and curve-balls fielded already in just this first month truly makes me feel I need a spiritual Tony Horton to kick my butt straight back to where I know I need to be. In the meantime, I have praying parents, a loving, encouraging  fiance and great friends. So, with all of the negativity trying to pry its way into my life, I've decided to put my "opinionated" posts on the back-burner for a short while. Let my blog be a positive outlet, not just an opinion page for my oh so demure thoughts and theories. 

Enter my "home-made cheap self therapy":

When I was a little girl, my mom sang to me all the time. Some songs were just for fun, (Mairzy Doats/Mares Eat Oats) and some were a discrete forms of "straighten up girls" ("Sisters, sisters"). While I have fond memories of the hundreds of songs my mom sang to me while rocking me after my bath, driving around in the car or belting out her Gospel as only my mother can, this year I had an old favorite take on an entirely new meaning. 

A few weeks ago while driving home I started humming "Que Sera, Sera". I hadnt heard the song in years, and quite frankly, when my mom would start singing it when I was younger, the meaning somewhat escaped me. But it has quickly become my mantra for this year. I dont think very many days have gone by that I havent silently looped this in my head. It's message is calming, but it helps to have that "Momma warmth" stuck in there too. (Plus, I do love me some Doris Day.)

I've never really been one of the "whatever will be, will be" attitude. Im a "eye on the prize and don't take no for an answer" type of girl. But this month, this new found mantra has saved me a migraine or two.  I know that I am in His hands, and no amount of worrying will ever do me any good (hello Matthew 6:33-34). So I'll continue into the second month of this new year, singing, smiling, with mantra looping- choosing to be eager for the growth I know will come. 

Any other mantra lovers?